Parents are a problem these days whether we choose to accept this fact or not. They may be older, but they tend to hold back the qualities in us, their children, that will one day shape us into grown men and women. This is my story and I am hoping someone out there will be able to relate.
Living in my house is a great problem for me. I have two loving parents, though I should add that they are over-loving. Lately I have been questioning their judgement in several different areas, and have found that their opinions differ greatly from mine.
In my home some things are considered unproper to discuss, such as race. Both my parents are slightly racist, which often makes me mad and causes me to lose respect for them. I do not understand how they can blame so many problems on one group of people. When my father or mother lectures me on sex, they often mention that I should 'beware because some stinky dirty low-class mexican will try to get his hands all over you.' I find this really shitty (pardon my french) because I do NOT see a difference in race. When my parents talk like that it causes a breakdown in the structure because I feel very alienated from them, beyond anything like a generation gap.
Another issue that causes problems is that of sexual preference. I once told my father that I found it displeasing when he used the term 'fag.' I was told to shut my mouth because homosexuals and the like live in sin and they deserve AIDs. I dont find this funny. AIDS is not just a homosexual disease, and it does not happen to bad people only. I myself have had to hide my sexuality from my parents because if I did ever tell them I was a bisexual I am afraid they would kick me put me in therapy and pray over me.
While all these things may seem irrelevant or dumb to some people, these facts have altered me considerably. Because of my parents behaviour, I don't tell them anything and I am permanently grounded in my home for what seems to be the rest of my life. I just wish I could tell them 'Yes I smoke cigarettes', 'Yes I am a bisexual', and 'No I dont want to go to college' without getting my head bit off. I am writing this because I hope that someone out there will relate, and maybe a parent will see this and realize 'I shouldn't be so hard on my kid. Hey, I did bad stuff too.'